If you truly don’t care, as you say you do–then don’t click on this site again.

It’s over, just turn your back on this thread and go write.

Readers will please pay ever so very close attention to what has been said before (& LONG before) my message as well as what comes after it? (I will send only today … I will not say more to make every one’s head ache even worse ! LOL). It will not show you what is happening if you skate over your reading ! b/c all in basic is already told on this page ! More will help answer the cloudier questions but continue to listen, but not just “to hear”.

I have long thought, and am sorry it is time for this rant added to other people’s rants, but it is time. Now I know Ja(y)nes’ readers need to know … & are heart felt wanted to know by people who care about other people’s safety (& I think that all the Ja(y)nes really care) ! This humble post comes from my deepest within too & is not a mean flame or a crazy joke ! It is instead love & prayed hope for all community safety and family.

Here were very easy directions to follow if you hope to find a part of truth in this loud & over tired yelling … what the web site hope to do for every one. I hope it was not an insult to tell every one what to do & I only said because I got a maddened feeling like every one was getting taken away from the subject in the insulting (& also having competition of words with no real discussion some times !).

Thanks All !, & Happy New Years’ To Hard Working Ja(y)nes, Et Al ! =)

by Becca Abbott December 22nd, 2008 at 5:00 pm Reply to this comment

How was I “hurting” other people, other than making them apply for refunds?

Well, by not giving out the refunds, for one. I think if you look in your email box you’ll find that at least one of those people has just emailed you about precisely that. I have saved the emails of others you shafted who wrote to me in desperation — as if I had any control over your behavior.

What are you talking about? I know of only one or two individuals who were not refunded before Yaoi Underground went bankrupt. Forward me these “emails” so I can deal with them.

You also spent a considerable amount of time and energy screwing over the authors who were contracted with Yaoihouse,

How was I screwing over anyone when you all plotted together to have Harial publish your books rather than me?

broke into personal email accounts,

granted. And I found exactly what I was looking for.

openly belittled and insulted anyone who objected to or criticized your behavior,

You’ve got to be kidding. Defending myself when others insulted and spat upon ME is a crime?

did your best to intimidate and harass individuals you felt were competition

What in the world are you talking about??? Be specific!

, made wild accusations of dastardly plots against you,

The only thing I accused anyone of was THE TRUTH, how Harial, Tyler and Vanessa wanted to “trick me” into signing away my rights, mistaking my mental illness for stupidity, apparently.

spammed this very blog with your so-called suicide note — the list is really quite impressive.

How did that hurt anyone but me? I almost DIED THAT NIGHT!

Now, suddenly, you’re back, posting like mad, doing your Kira Morningstar impression,

What’s that supposed to mean? I can’t talk about my faith?

trying to rewrite history,

How am I trying to rewrite history, Becca?

making claims for your business you can’t support, and so on.

Excuse me, what claims? And what does “and so on” mean?

I agree with others: this isn’t your usual rampant narcissism. It sounds like mania to me. I’d wish you good luck but….nah.

Now that you’re finished insulting me, I’m still waiting to hear how I hurt anyone?

How was I “hurting” other people, other than making them apply for refunds?

Well, by not giving out the refunds, for one. I think if you look in your email box you’ll find that at least one of those people has just emailed you about precisely that. I have saved the emails of others you shafted who wrote to me in desperation — as if I had any control over your behavior.

You also spent a considerable amount of time and energy screwing over the authors who were contracted with Yaoihouse, broke into personal email accounts, openly belittled and insulted anyone who objected to or criticized your behavior, did your best to intimidate and harass individuals you felt were competition, made wild accusations of dastardly plots against you, spammed this very blog with your so-called suicide note — the list is really quite impressive.

Now, suddenly, you’re back, posting like mad, doing your Kira Morningstar impression, trying to rewrite history, making claims for your business you can’t support, and so on. I agree with others: this isn’t your usual rampant narcissism. It sounds like mania to me. I’d wish you good luck but….nah.

Kira, I didn’t ask discussion to come to a halt. Everyone here is free to discuss this until the cows come home. I merely asked those posting inflaming comments to consider their words, and to what purpose they’re posting.

Well then. When you put it that way, I think what you say is very wise. How easy it is to forget that a real live person is on the other side of the screen. Because, despite what Cathy says, I do not think this is a game.

Cathy and Yukiko and others, I’d like to add my plea to Ann’s. While we rarely censor people and try to always allow them to speak their minds, please do consider what’s going on here, and that this has degenerated into something other than a discussion that serves any good purpose.

Interesting how only when I finally come on the board to defend myself does the discussion suddenly have to stop.

The thing with you, is you think its a game. you are a horrible person and you use an illness as a way to get by in life.

Gee, you’re a really swell human being, too. You know what? Even though you said such a terrible thing to me, at least this time you acknowledged that I’m a human being. So I’ve gone up a notch in your eyes.

What do you mean I “use illness as a way to get by in life”? I’ve never heard anything so absurd. My illness is what makes it difficult for me to get by, not my crutch! Can you really be that ignorant about the subject?

Kira, my post isn’t about you, and in fact I tried to stop it pinging back for that reason.

Interesting. You quoted me and then announced I was mentally ill. I guess that was just the openers to your article.

However, if you had read the post below that, you’d see me freely admitting to being mentally ill myself. It’s not a cause for shame any more than having cancer or kidney disease is.

I know that. However you certainly never gave me credit before–you even doubted that I was bipolar. Why the sudden change?

My position is that your posts in the last 24 hours – the religiosity, the frequency, the paranoia – reveal you are going through some kind of psychological episode, and you really need to go back to your doctor. Really, really, really.

I just decided I’m going to put an end to the lies you all post on this site, so I will be answering every single accusation posted here. I’ve been to the doctor, thank you, and she agrees I am well.

Just because I care about your soul doesn’t make mean I’m having a psychological episode.

Cathy and the others, stop it. Seriously, you’re being vicious. There’s nothing remotely admirable about poking fun at someone who’s sick, or trying to win an argument with someone going through a mental health crisis.

Um, I’m not going through any crisis, here. Just not letting any more ridiculous posts go through to this site without calling people out. If you all are allowed to accuse me of whatever comes to mind, I am allowed to defend myself.

However, your concern for the mentally ill is…commendable, and truly touching. *wipes tear from eye* Let me guess. You finally got a diagnosis yourself so you’ve changed your view on my situation.

Sarcasm aside, I’m glad you do understand, though I’m sorry if you experience such torment yourself.