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You probably think it's really cool to have a twin. It is, so don't get me wrong. I’m not complaining. It's just that, if I had to have a twin who is perfect, why couldn't I be her identical twin? Then I'd be perfect, too.
Okay, I guess I am complaining.
Here's the thing about twins, in case you don't know. There are two kinds: identical and regular. Identical twins are clones of each other. Regular twins are just siblings who happened to be born on the same day. They can be as alike, or as different, as any other pair of brothers or sisters. They can even be a brother and a sister.
So yes, it is possible for one twin to be sunny and smart and the other twin to be gawky and geeky. It's possible for one twin to be an A student and the other twin to be a C student. It's possible for one twin to be popular and the other twin to be – not. So not.
Entirely possible. And totally unfair.
So far, report card time is the worst. But let's face it, I’m in high school now. Which means that from now on, my grades will be the least of my worries.
You know what I’m talking about.
I’m fairly confident that my parents and teachers thinking I’m a loser is, like, who cares?? Compared to the painful truth that I am a social reject. I mean, if I could have straight A's and never get into trouble and be, like, the angel child, would I rather have that, or a wicked cool boyfriend?
Not that I have a choice, because neither of those scenarios is exactly playing out for me. But sometimes it's useful to frame it that way, mentally. I do that a lot. If I had a choice, would I want A more? Or B? This helps you pick your goals in life. If you're going to go for what you really want, it helps to know what you really want.
Unfortunately, I want it all.
But when push comes to shove, yeah, there are some things I want more than others. The wicked cool boyfriend is at the top of my list. I mean, come on. I’m not that lame.
So once you figure out which you want most, A or B, you play the next mental game: If I can't have B anyway, should I go for A? I know a lot of kids–girls, mostly–who figure that a wicked cool boyfriend is so far from happening, they may as well get straight A's and be the angel child. At least they'll have something to point to. At least their school years won't be a complete waste.
I totally see where they're coming from. I just can't make myself go there.