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REVIEW: My Cowboy Heart by Z.A. Maxfield

Dear Z.A. Maxfield,

It is exciting to me that m/m romance is (just) beginning (I believe) to become mainstream and that publishers such as Penguin, through their digital arm, Intermix, are embracing diversity.  It is early days, but I have high hopes that we’ll be seeing more m/m or GLBTQ romance from the Big 6.

Immediately before reading My Cowboy Heart, I read a gripping romantic suspense.  That may have been a mistake – there are no stalkers, serial killers or terrorists in this book. On the other hand, a change of pace is nice too.   My Cowboy Heart  is a very gentle romance, and sweet, notwithstanding the spicy sex scenes (on par with your average contemporary m/f).  There is an innocence and  charm to the tale but it is not high on action.

Malloy is the fomycowboyheartreman of the J-Bar ranch in New Mexico.  He was the foster child of ranch owners, Crandall and Emma Jenkins, having arrived at the ranch as a surly, frightened boy at the age of 14.  Now, at 32, the ranch and the Jenkins family are his life.  He is a solitary type of person and he reads as quite a bit older than his stated age.  In fact, shortly after we meet the other hero of the story, Crispin Carrasco, Crispin expresses surprise at Malloy’s relative youth.  So, it seems Malloy looks older as well.  In my head, I pegged him as about 45 and it kind of jarred when his real age came up. Perhaps Malloy is just an old soul.

The story begins when the Jenkins’ are off for an extended holiday with their daughters and their daughters’ families, to Orlando, Florida and the joys of DisneyWorld.  Just before leaving, Crandall Jenkins lets Malloy know that he’s offered a job to the nephew of a family friend, 25 year old Crispin who is out and proud and who talks a blue streak.   Crandall asks Malloy to keep an eye out for Crispin and ensure there is no trouble with the other two hands (the ranch having only a few staff over winter).

Malloy has never had any serious romantic relationships – he has had the occasional “arrangement” with local women from town but he has never before considered that he might be attracted to men.  However, soon after he meets Crispin, he’s changing his view about his heterosexual status.  It is actually a fairly gentle coming out and it doesn’t take all that long for Malloy to accept his homosexuality, even though he is forced to re-think just about everything he believed about himself.

I’d only known Crispin Carrasco for a few days, and I was already all tangled up in him. Like Crispin was light and I was a june bug, but everything I’d ever believed about myself was a window between us and thinking about him was just another way to smash myself against it.

Crispin (his Native American/Latino parents were actors and named him after the actor Crispin Glover from Back to the Future) is very open, very in touch with his emotions and, even though he has significant trauma in his own past, he has an air of innocence about him.  He is sweet and affectionate and kind of a like a big sleek puppy dog, even though he’s 25.  As for the trauma in Crispin’s past, it was really only touched upon.  It comes to light after a triggering event and he lets his temper show.  After that, events of the book kind of took over and what, if anything, Crispin was going to do about it was never really mentioned again.  I’m not sure really whether I liked it or not.  On the one hand, it was implicit acknowledgement that some things mess you up and you never really get over them, just learn (mostly) to deal.  On the other, it was kind of… left. But maybe that was a good thing.

For all that Crispin seems an open book, baring his painful past to Malloy wasn’t easy for him.  This doesn’t stop him from pushing and prying into Malloy’s childhood and asking questions about Malloy’s remaining biological family – questions Malloy is not keen on entertaining.

“Christ, Crispin. Could I just deal with being gay today? Do we have to pry open the rest of my life and fuck with that too?”

Even though it is Crispin who is the more experienced partner, Malloy is no passive participant.  When Crispin blows hot and cold (and not in the good way either – at least, not then), Malloy makes it plain he’s not about to be used:

 “I ain’t your shrink. I ain’t your teddy bear. I sure as hell ain’t gonna be your yo-yo. And if you come on to me like this, if you curl up all over me and make eyes and shit, you’d better be prepared to fuck me like the fleet’s in, or I will knock you down.”

You tell him Malloy!    (And Crispin does, oh yes he does… :D)

When tragedy strikes, Malloy’s and Crispin’s new relationship is tested.  They are “safe” at the J-Bar.  The society is fairly close and relatively non-judgemental.  Apart from some surliness from one of the hands, Jim (who has his own issues), Malloy is basically accepted for who he is by those on the ranch – including the Jenkins family.  There is a fairytale quality to the story in that respect I think.  Malloy makes decisions to be with Crispin, to be out and proud (even though he’ll never be as naturally demonstrative as Crispin is) but he doesn’t really come up against all that much opposition or homophobic judgement.  The book does acknowledge that gay cowboys aren’t really well accepted elsewhere but it’s not like that at the J-Bar.

The intimate first person POV reveals Malloy’s deep emotions even though he doesn’t like to put them on display.  He is particularly close to Crandall Jenkins and his feelings about the man and his place on the J-Bar brought me to tears more than once.

Even though the romance is fast – most of the book takes place in a very few weeks, there was a gentle pace to the novel – kind of like a languid trail ride on a lazy horse.  That’s not to say it was boring.  It was not. But it wasn’t action-packed by any stretch.

I did feel that Malloy and Crispin had found, in each other, their soul mates, even though there was no Big Moment when it was put to the test.  It was a sweet and enjoyable character-driven romance.  I give it a B-.




Kaetrin started reading romance as a teen and then took a long break, detouring into fantasy and thrillers. She returned to romance in 2008 and has been blogging since 2010. She reads contemporary, historical, a little paranormal, urban fantasy and romantic suspense, as well as erotic romance and more recently, new adult. She loves angsty books, funny books, long books and short books. The only thing mandatory is the HEA. Favourite authors include Mary Balogh, Susanna Kearsley, Joanna Bourne, Tammara Webber, Kristen Ashley, Shannon Stacey, Sarah Mayberry, JD Robb/Nora Roberts, KA Mitchell, Marie Sexton, Patricia Briggs, Ilona Andrews, just to name a few. You can find her on Twitter: @kaetrin67.


  1. cleo
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 15:07:38

    Oooh, I heard that Penguin was publishing an m/m romance. I’m really excited about that too. I’m on the fence about whether or not I’m going to read the actual book – Z. A. Maxfield is very hit or miss for me. I hated Crossing Borders with the heat of a thousand fiery suns but kind of liked a couple others by her.

  2. cs
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 16:15:28

    Crispin? Sometimes I wonder if author’s just make their reader’s suffer with their character’s names. It reads a bit ‘meh’ if I’m honest and I agree with @cleo the author is probably more miss than hit with me. However, I think I’ll give this book a try. Thank you for the review.

  3. Julia
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 16:40:49

    @cleo: I totally agree with you, hated Crossing Borders but have liked others by her. Can’t decide on this one. I usually dislike cowboy romances of any kind. Somehow they just don’t live up to my fantasy I guess. Or maybe it’s that all the cowboys I’ve met in real life have been arrogant and ignorant jerks.

  4. cleo
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 17:04:13

    @Julia: I’m glad I’m not the only one :)

  5. I’m Over at Dear Author… |
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 19:42:22

    […] with a review of My Cowboy Heart by ZA Maxfield, the new m/m romance released from Intermix.  So happy to see mainstream releases of gay romance.   As for the book, see what I thought here. […]

  6. Kaetrin
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 19:52:16

    @cleo: I haven’t read Crossing Borders so I don’t know how it would compare. I have had a bit of a hit and miss experience with this author too but I liked this one. Let me know what you think if you decide to try it. :)

    @cs: Crispin is an odd name for a romance hero but it is explained in the book. Crispin’s parents were actors and were extras on Back to the Future. They met and adored Crispin Glover and decided to name their child after him. It is still an unusual name but at least there is an explanation. Whether it works for individual readers is another issue of course.

    @Julia: I don’t read a lot of cowboy romance either. I liked Malloy, he was honorable, smart and kind and he clearly loves the J-Bar Ranch. We have “jackaroos” here, not cowboys, and the few I’ve met have been mostly jerks too so I know what you’re saying! :D

  7. Sirius
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 22:31:14

    I preordered this one, so I shall see soon enough how close my opinion is to yours :). I loved her early ones including “Crossing Borders” heh and “Drawn together” and several others, but lately I am on the fence about her works – find them a bit boring. Looking forward to see how this one will be. Thanks for the great review :-).

  8. Kaetrin
    Aug 20, 2013 @ 23:08:14

    @Sirius: Thx :) It is fairly low on conflict Sirius, so I can see that some people might find it on the boring side.

  9. Sandra Schwab
    Aug 24, 2013 @ 07:37:00

    Thanks for this review, Kaetrin. On the strength of it, I bought the book, and I’m enjoying Mallory and Crispin’s story very much. I don’t mind that the pace is a bit slower than in most other romances, and I really like the glimpses of unexpected humour that also come through in your quotations from the novel.

  10. Kaetrin
    Aug 24, 2013 @ 08:14:56

    @Sandra Schwab: Thank you Sandra. I’m glad the review was helpful for you and that you are enjoying the story.

  11. Wahoo Suze
    Aug 25, 2013 @ 22:20:22

    I’m really looking forward to reading this one, I love K.A. Mitchell. Good for her for getting picked up by the mainstream (but ASSHOLE) publishers (who won’t sell e-books to Canada). I guess I’ll have to wait until an adequate number of goats are sacrificed to the Arbitrary Gods before I can buy it.

  12. Kaetrin
    Aug 25, 2013 @ 22:54:16

    @Wahoo Suze: the book is by ZA Maxfield, no KA Mitchell (thought I love KAM books too). I don’t know about Canada, but I can buy Intermix books here in Australia which usually indicates that geo restrictions aren’t a problem. Good luck anyway :)

  13. Wahoo Suze
    Aug 26, 2013 @ 13:49:47

    Oops! Yes, I love ZAM too :) This could very well explain why the book wasn’t showing up at Kobo for me. *hangs head in shame*

  14. Kaetrin
    Aug 26, 2013 @ 20:00:31

    @Wahoo Suze: LOL! good luck :)

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